SelenRoseBlack

I feel a need to tell you something personal, so if you don't want to read about my personal life or mental health problems, just skip this journal entry. I am quite aware that since the start of 2018 I haven't been posting much. I've been telling myself that I just have an off day...or week...or month. But let's face it, I have a problem. I know that talking about mental health is still very much tabboo, but at this point I don't care. I have depression and I have panic and anxiety disorder. When you combine this with having zero self-confidence and grewing up in a toxic family, followed by abusive relationship, you can just straight up say

...I had no inspiration lately (and so little time too). If you have any requests or ideas tell me, please. I'm quite desperate for anything to spark my inspiration again

Lately I've been feeling really un-satisfied with the art I make (dunno why) and it's kind of killing my creativity. I can't even count the number of times I started to paint or draw something during last week and I just had to put it away again, because it just didn't feel right...it makes me sad.